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Mar. 3rd, 2008 | 11:03 am

I rarely post on LJ, but I'm still around. Most of the time, I blog over at mentalmosaic.com , so swing by and say hi. :)

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Ironies...

Jul. 4th, 2007 | 10:55 am

Every year, I tell Naomi, “I wish you & Max could come to the states for 4th of July!” because it has become tradition for my family to celebrate Independence Day at my brother’s lake home. It’s so much fun! Well, of all the ironies... this year, N&M are finally in the states for the holiday, but I am in Italy!

If you read her journal, however, you know that her grandmother recently passed away so their trip was well-timed, somehow, after all. One of these years, though, I want to sit on the deck overlooking the lake with them, drink beer, eat watermelon & bbq & hang out with my family for the 4th. Meanwhile, I am missing them & my family dearly today. Thank goodness for Skype! My sister-in-law is giving my family a Skype tutorial as soon as they arrive (i.e. before they get too rowdy!)

Hope y’all are having fun!

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Work, Candida & Sleep

Dec. 24th, 2000 | 01:13 pm


I got the job!!! Hooray! :-) Tim and Mariko are a lively couple and I feel very comfortable around them both.

Two things concern me, though. Readjusting my sleep schedule and the fact that I had planned to start a special diet to control an overgrowth of Candida at the beginning of the new year.

I've been going to bed around 3:00 and getting up around 11:00 (it just made sense with website clients in Europe) But for this job, I'll need to leave the house around 6:30 a.m. I just don't want to be a zombie at work...

The sleep thing may be brutal for the first week or two, but my body will adjust. The Candida thing is more worrying. I've heard that as the yeast dies off, you can feel pretty crappy, but that afterwards you feel so much better. I've done a lot of research on the issue though, and I think all the heavy antibiotics I've taken in the past few years have let Candida get out of balance in my body. I really want to try this approach and see.

I'm just not sure what to do... For one thing, I'll be surrounded by forbidden food items at the coffeehouse. For another, I don't want to be feeling crappy and out of it while I'm adjusting my new job.

Much as I hate to say this, I may have to put off the diet for a few more weeks.

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True Ghost Story

Oct. 31st, 2000 | 12:06 pm


Figured that since it's Halloween, I'd share a true ghost story:

The first time it happened, I thought there was an intruder in our house. It was about 11 p.m. and I was reading in bed, when I heard the distinct sound of someone jumping up and down on the mattress in the basement below my room. The bouncing sound went on for a solid twenty minutes, then ceased. I wanted to call my parents, but I was afraid to even venture out and use the bathroom, let alone the phone. So I hid in my closet with a book and a flashlight attempting to read as my imagination went wild. What if it was the Manson Family coming to stab me to death and smear my blood all over the house? The book Helter Skelter had recently made the rounds of my sixth grade class and I had vivid images in my mind of those disturbing events to fuel my terror.

At last my folks got home from their bridge party. Dad investigated and found nothing amiss: all doors were locked, all windows sealed and most unsettling of all (to me anyway) was that the coverlet on the basement bed showed no signs of disturbance. It didn�t make sense.

The bouncing sounds continued � but only when I was home alone. This happened so often that I almost got used to it. Almost. Knowing that it wasn't a physical intruder gave me a modicum of safety. I did quit mentioning it to my family, though. You see, it's no secret that I've always had an active imagination. (I've actually seen the Sandman, for instance - but that's another story.) So when I insisted that I was hearing a ghost in the basement, my family gave me placating grins which told me that - while they believed I was hearing something they didn't think there was anything supernatural about it. "It's probably the furnace turning on, Honey," my dad would say. "It's the house settling," my mom would insist. "It's just some ghosts having sex," my sister would taunt, "Let them have their privacy."

Oh how I wished that it would happen when they were home for once! Oh how angry I was at that ghost for making me look like a gullible fool! It reminded me of those Disney movies in which some animal will only talk to a person when no other humans are around, thereby causing said human�s friends to doubt his or her sanity. It's frustrating!

After several months of this, I decided to confront the mysterious bouncing ghost. So the next time I heard it, I threw an afghan over my shoulders (somehow this made me feel more brave), grabbed the cat in one hand and a pool cue in the other, then ran downstairs. The bouncing sound continued as I approached the basement bedroom. When I reached the haunted room I didn't have a free hand so I kicked the door open. The moment I did so, the sound ceased.

I stepped timidly into the room, twirling around so that nothing could sneak up on me. I was annoyed to discover that, as usual, the bedspread was unruffled. Rude ghost! If only it had the decency to give me some tangible proof. "I know you're in here!" I shrieked to the emptiness. By this time, I was shaking so badly I could hardly stand - but I sure as hell was not going to sit on that haunted bed! Then, since I'd heard that animals can sense ghosts, I sat the cat on the bed. He was so pissed off at being lugged around, however, that he ran straight out the door. So did I.

The next time it happened, I tried a different tactic. I cranked up the radio to drown out the bouncing sounds and did my best to ignore the ghost. About a half an hour later, the phone rang. When I answered it I heard a recording saying something along the lines of, �Someone on your line is calling you, please wait for the other party to join the line.� You can only get this recording when you dial your own number from within your own house. I wonder now what I might have heard if I�d waited for the �other party to join the line� instead of freaking out and hanging up. I never ignored the bouncing ghost again!

Eventually I told my good friend, Alice, about the bouncing and she truly believed me, which was comforting. She even helped me run an experiment: she went downstairs and jumped up and down on the bed so I could compare that to what I heard while home alone. Sure enough, it sounded exactly the same. The only difference was that when she did it, the bedspread got all messed up.

One day when Alice was spending the night, the bouncing sound started up again and she heard it, too! After about 5 minutes of the strange sound, we went downstairs together and as usual, the moment we opened the door the sound quit. Still, I was elated! Finally another living soul had heard the bouncing ghost!

As I grew older the bouncing incidents grew more infrequent, but never truly ceased. We�ve since moved from that house, but I wonder if the new tenants ever hear mysterious sounds from that basement bedroom?

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settling in

Sep. 4th, 2000 | 11:53 am

I'm beginning to feel settled in! I bet its because I *finally* started writing again. For me, writing has always been a way to digest my experience, but between the tumult of transitions and being computerless at home it's been challenging. So this past week I resorted to that old-fashioned method called writing by hand. Its slow going, but the immediacy of it lets me empty my mind throughout the day. Whatever works! Even so, I still need to get a solid writing schedule together, especially if I want to be ready in time for the One Act Play competition at the end of this month.

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Now I know what they mean by gratuitous sex

Sep. 3rd, 2000 | 11:50 pm

We strolled through town, then up the beach and through the park with N&M on this sunny day. Later we rented The Ninth Gate thinking that it would be a suspenseful tale with some groovy special effects. I now suspect that Johnny Depp and his co-star (the director's wife) had golf announcers for dialogue coaches in order to achieve such a pinnacle of spoken monotony. The capper to this dull caper was the ridiculous sex scene near the end that had us roaring with laughter - certainly not what Roman Polanski intended.

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It's a big planet...

Sep. 2nd, 2000 | 11:58 pm

We picked up Naomis boyfriend this afternoon and, although slightly punchy from jet lag, he managed to stay up and watch most of Saturday Night Live. He and Naomi have been dating for nearly two years, yet theyve spent most of their time together in his time zone, so this is our side of the familys chance to get to know him. Those two are so obviously happy together I wish there were an easy way to resolve the geography issue.

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"The Bed"

Sep. 1st, 2000 | 11:12 pm

Jef and I chauffered Miss Elsie Watson over to Galen�s for a film shoot tonight. Miss Watson is a dynamic 90-year-old lady who was involved in the creation of the United Nations. Her husband was a scientist who occasionally brought home the likes of Albert Einstein for dinner.

As we helped Miss Watson from her wheelchair into the car I realized how spending time with both young children and the elderly has this way of keeping one in the present. It had been a rush-rush sort of day and this enforced slowing down was just what I needed to relax.

When Miss Watson asked, �Exactly what is this film about?� Jef and I laughingly admitted we didn�t know. Galen had simply told us that he was creating a film based around a James Broughton poem and that he needed a couple and an old person for one of the scenes.

When we got to the shoot, Galen�s studio was set up as an impromptu green room with wine and beer for the actors. In the photography studio next door was a large bed. This made more sense once we were told that the name of the Broughton poem is �The Bed.�

A sweet fellow named Matt recited the poem to us. (I looked for a copy of it online to link to in this entry, but had no luck.) What I got from Matt�s recitation is that the poem expresses how so many of life�s milestones can occur in bed.

It was fun to see Galen and Jim in action as they coached and coaxed the various participants during their turns in bed. Jef and I were instructed to be goofy, which wasn�t much of a stretch for us. I�m really curious what the finished product will look like. It�s going to be the first film shown in the upcoming Port Townsend Film Festival.

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drive safely

Sep. 1st, 2000 | 12:46 pm

Seven people from our old hometown were involved in serious car wrecks this week; two of these were friends. As I mentioned in a previous entry, my friend is in the hospital; Naomis friend did not survive.

She really wanted to attend the funeral, but it was too difficult to arrange the transportation in time. I wonder why they have funerals in such a rush? Especially this time of year, I'm sure some of her friends are vacationing and don't even know what happened yet...

As I was looking for obituaries online, I discovered that a man who used to play in the trumpet section of my band had died of cancer that day and that my former co-workers brother died suddenly from an aneurysm while on a business trip.

What an unsettling week

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a myoclonic jerk to the psyche

Jun. 23rd, 2000 | 01:55 pm

I'm curious about other people's motives for having a live journal.

I, for one, already have a personal journal, so this needn't serve that function. And while I'll try not to be petty in my posts, there is also the aspect of how one person's petty details can seem exotic to another.

A picture of my house once prompted a Belgian pal to inquire, "Your house - is it made of wood?!?" Most homes in Belgium are stone or brick, so this was an oddity through his eyes.

I suppose that for me, livejournal is an open letter to the world.

In return, I hope that maintaining it will keep my eyes open to the world around me - a myoclonic jerk to the psyche so to speak...

Actually, if this is one of the only livejournal entries that you see, it means that you are not on my LJ friends list.

After my divorce, I chose to make this journal for friends' eyes only. (For some reason, it won't let me make all my posts private, so a few random ones remain unlocked.)

My public blog, however, is here:
mental mosaic

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